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| God Hates Me |
So here I sit all alone
GOD HATES ME...
You're all out having fun
GOD HATES ME...
Nothing seems to matter but your own happy little life
GOD HATES ME...
All you're worried about is yourself and staying away from me
GOD HATES ME...
When you are near me you ignore me
GOD HATES ME...
You ask me what's wrong yet you honestly don't give two shits
GOD HATES ME...
When I respond with, "nothing," you just shrug and walk away
GOD HATES ME...
When you see me sitting alone, crying, you ignore me yet again
GOD HATES ME...
When you get bored doing what you're always so "busy" doing, you come up to me and ask, "what's wrong?"
GOD HATES ME...
Knowing the answer, you stand there pretending to listen and care as if you were my friend
GOD HATES ME...
Then when you see my face on the news as "yet another teenage suicide", you think to yourself, "she said there was nothing wrong" and you just shrug and walk away
GOD HATES ME...
Then when you go back to your white pearly gates and see me standing there alone with my face in my hands, you ask me, "what's wrong?"
GOD HATES ME...
Again I answer, "nothing!"
GOD HATES ME...
But this time, this time it's different, I'm the one who shrugs and walks away
GOD HATES ME...
I shrug and walk away as you condemn me to another eternity in hell
GOD HATES ME...
No matter, for hell...hell is my home...my home is not here with you...why you ask?
YOU HATE ME!
That's why... |
| Infatuation |
Precious words that were said to me
Were all lies that I couldn't see
You put visions in my head
And still I can't forget the things you've said
"I'm the one who's in love with you
I will see you through the things you do
Whatever happens I will wait
Falling in love with you is my fate"
I can't believe I cherished your words
I knew falling too soon was real absurd
But I was infatuated and seen too slow
I was young and stupid, I'd never know
Time to tell was all it took
I was madly in love with just one look |
| Father |
He walks around my house, his nostrils both flared out,
his lips are pursed in an angry kiss, as he wildly looks about.
He claims he is just angry, at his own foolish mistake,
while the world between my thighs is what he impatiantly awaits.
He blames me for his frustration, while degrading his own wife,
he blames me for being the answer in his sexually frustrated life.
He threatens he can burn my world to ashes and to dust,
I tell him I've got a card he can't play so burn him if he must.
He tells me he will use his sources, to hurt this theif of a man,
I tell him he is foolish, just try to hurt him if he can.
He then puts to work his softness,in his pathetic self piteous way,
tells me its not hard to love him and that every day he prays.
He says he wants my happiness, if it means casting me out,
I tell him all I want is my own life, to travel down my own route.
And I walk around my own house,my head constantly down,
my eyes constantly blank because of this confusion on my crown.
I hate that fucking angry beast with all of my transparent heart,
he broke me open and stole all my fillings, then tore the rest of me apart.
I told him of my degredation, of a feeling rooted deep in my gut,
that I'm not a plastic blowup toy, I'm not his filthy slut.
And now he threatens to hurt her deeply, on my own deceitful account,
forces me to sign my own will, with pity of absolutely no amount. |
| In Loving Memory... |
I can no longer
feel your presence.
Rose petals falling
from the sky in
your loving memory.
I try to forget because
it hurts to remember. Forgetting seems
impossible because
everything I see
reminds me of your
sweet face. Amazing
it seems that I have
gone so long without
touching you. I can't
believe I haven't died without you. You can
look at me without a
second thought even
though I can't even
think of you without
shedding a tear of
remembrance |
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